I’ve had a hard time focusing on much of anything since my last post, and I’m realizing that maybe it’s because I’m trying to focus on too many things at once. I’m searching for a new job, seriously looking into possibly starting a business based on my paper crafting, thinking of completely rearranging several rooms in the house, and trying desperately to get back on the fitness track. I’m dreaming big, but I’m only one person, and there are only so many hours in the day. But I really want these things, and most of them I’d like now. The problem is, trying to focus on so many different things at once ironically leaves me with no focus at all.
So, time to slow down and concentrate on one or two things. Fitness comes first, because when I’m feeling down and depressed about falling off the proverbial wagon, it’s almost impossible for me to feel good about myself, or even function. I figure feeling good about myself will help immensely when I’m interviewing for a new job. So, yeah, I’m back to counting calories again, and am making a concentrated effort to at least walk every day. It hasn’t been easy, as I’ve been struggling with the food addiction and falling back into less than healthy behaviors. I’ve been telling myself that I can continue eating as much as I want and that I can stop whenever I want to, when I know perfectly well that is the furthest thing from the truth.
It’s time to focus on those behaviors, drag them into the light, correct them, and get back on track.